What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we deeply love becomes a part of us...

Today it has been 10 years exactly since my Grandpa died. Its amazing to me how it feels like it was yesterday that he was here, and at the same time feels like a different lifetime the last time we talked. He was one of those people that could spread joy without any effort. I wish he was still alive now so he could see how well I have grown up. I wanted him to be at my high school graduation, my college graduation, my wedding.... But I know he is up there looking down on me. I may have lost a support on earth but I gained an angel in heaven. He taught me so much when he was alive, about being happy, and being passionate and compassionate about life and people. He truly is one of the people that has shaped my whole life, and who I am, and I am so thankful he was around as long as he was, and that I was able to take so much from him. I hope that he is looking down, proud as he can be, and that he knows that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish he was here and that I love him forever and ever, and even longer then that.


It's funny, cause on anniversaries like this I am usually either really sad, or keep myself very busy to try and forget about it. Today though, I have felt very content. There is a warmth in me today that I don't know where it's from, and I'm starting to wonder if it is him, letting me know he is here, and letting me know how much he loves me. It sure does feel that way. Either way, today I want to remember him, and how good her was, and how much I love him.

"I think of you often
and make no outward show,
But what it means to lose you,
no one will ever know
You wished no one farewell,
not even said good-bye,
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
You are not forgotten
nor will you ever be,
As long as life and memories last,
I will remember thee.
To some you may be forgotten,
to others a part of the past,
But to me who loved you dearly,
your memories will always last.
Nothing can be more beautiful
than the memories I have of you.
To me, you were someone special,
God must have thought so too!
If tears could build a staircase
and memories a lane,
I would walk all the way to Heaven,
and bring you back again." -- Anon


"You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is
it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you" -- Plain White Tees


"Perhaps they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy." --Eskimo Legend


"Remembering is an act of resurrection, each repetition a vital layer of mourning, in memory of those we are sure to meet again". ~Nancy Cobb, in "In Lieu of Flowers"



Remember to tell the people in your life that you love them as often as you can. Life is short and precious and shouldn't be wasted on hate or worry. To love people regardless of how they look, act, or what they believe is the only way to live. My grandpa taught me that, and I hope that today, and this blog will inspire you to speak your heart and to spread the love.


<3 Love you grandpa.